A strong woman talks

A strong woman talks about her sexual needs

A strong woman talks about being incest-sexual and it seems that most of the people who reach out to me seeking advice or emotional support about their incestuous desires are women. It seems that women, in particular, feel compelled to share their experiences and seek guidance in these matters. To ensure that their stories are authentic and to respect their privacy, I always take the time to speak with them directly on the phone. During these conversations, I also make sure to get their permission before publishing any part of their stories. This approach not only helps me maintain the integrity of their narratives, but also builds a deeper connection with each person who reaches out.

The letter below is from a woman who asked to be completely nameless. She and I resonated in many ways, the least of which are that I too have a overwhelming desire for my father and we’re both very emotionally strong women. Her strength was evident on the phone and it’s very evident in her writings. The incest-sexual community needs more strong people like her.

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As I sit here, typing my thoughts, I feel like Atlas, being crushed under the weight of my taboo desires. But you know what? I refuse to be ashamed of who I am or what I want. So here goes – I am a 35-year-old woman who is incest-sexual, and I am not afraid to admit it.

I have always felt a deep connection with my father. It was more than just the love between a father and daughter; it was an undeniable attraction that consumed my thoughts and dreams. I longed for something more than the conventional relationship society had deemed appropriate for us. As a child, I experienced the typical feelings of infatuation for my father. But as I grew older, those feelings only intensified, and I found myself yearning for a physical and emotional connection with him.

The ache in my heart for my father’s touch was unbearable at times. I struggled to understand why I felt this way. I even tried to suppress my desires for years, hoping they would simply disappear. But they never did. Instead, my longing for my father only grew stronger. I’ve been unable to maintain relationships with anyone else. The thought of being with another man filled me with dread, as if my heart belongs to my father alone.

I know the world would condemn me for how I feel. But when loneliness and longing consume your every waking thought, you don’t really worry about how others would react to those needs. My incestuous desires are a part of my identity. Denying them is emotional torture.

So, I decided to take a leap of faith and tell my father what I’ve been feeling. I know the risks involved, but I can’t bear the thought of living a lie any longer. I need to know if there was even the slightest chance that my feelings might be reciprocated.

As I prepared to have this difficult conversation, another challenge emerged. My son, who is not yet a man, has began to show signs of interest in me, which I find to be a natural consequence of our close bond. I can’t help but feel equally attracted to him, but I know the potential consequences of acting on these desires. He’s at the awkward stage where he’s neither a full grown adult nor a minor. It’s the delicate crossroad in which something like incest can be more harmful than beneficial.

I’m first and foremost a protective mother, who wants the best for my family. Rest assured, when he’s a fully grown adult, if (and ONLY IF ) he continues to show a sexual interest in me, will I respond favorably. But the decision and responsibility must rest solely upon him to pursue me. It seems to me that in parent-child incest, it should always be the child who initiates the relationship.

Therefore, it’s equally my responsibility to pursue my dad. Hopefully doing so will keep me occupied with him, instead of admiring how my son is becoming a strong young man. In many ways I’m caught in the middle of two powerful attractions, both fraught with risk and controversy. It’s my sexual identity that I’m struggling with and the genetic sexual attraction that I feel very powerful. Therefore, I’m going to pursue my father and see if there was any chance of a future together. If incest-sexuality is in any way possibly hereditary, then here’s a good chance that my father shares my needs.

In the end, I have to pursue my father, as I believe it was my best chance at finding the love and connection I had yearned for my entire life. I know the road ahead will be difficult, but I am determined to follow my heart. I am proud to be an incest-sexual woman who is unapologetic about her desires. I am ready to have that difficult conversation with my father and see where it leads us. Because at the end of the day, all that matters is being true to myself and honest with my loved ones. Thank you for reading my story.

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